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Okay, so I am in a huge mountain top experience right now. Remember the changes I was telling you about that I can't tell you about yet, well they are amazing and I am so incredibly blessed! Jesus is ravishing my heart even more and it is so beautiful! But I need to expose Satan's lies that are being feed to me a lot lately. He keeps telling my that I am not worthy, and that it is all going to end. He is trying to provoke fear in me, to make me hold onto this high and do all I can to not lose it. The truth is... I am not worthy! And one day it will all end whether it be sooner and many years down the road. But that's okay because my hope, my life, my love is not found in this experience. It is only found in Jesus. And when it is all taken from me it won't matter because Jesus will be there! Satan is trying to get me to make this an idol, but I can't because that would mean forsaking my savior! So I will continue to expose satan's lies and believe in God's truth! I surrender my life and all of the blessings GLADLY for my King!

Jesus is AMAZING!!!

In case you haven't figured it out yet...I am in love...with Jesus!!! I just am in so much shock at how much he loves and blesses me! I deserve Hell...that's it! That is all that I should receive my entire life. That is what I am entitled to is eternal torment and pain... but instead Jesus gave me life! Eternal life with Jesus forever and ever! And I so don't deserve it. Wow, AND he not only gave me that but he blesses me in my life so incredibly much! I mean it would take years to say all the things he has given me that I don't deserve because EVERYTHING I have been given I don't deserve! I love him! And not because I can..in fact I can't love him not on my own. I didn't love him I killed him. It was my sin that held him on that cross. No, its not because of me...it's because of him. This love story is because He, being a magnificent King great in might and power humbled himself for me and became a man. Then laid his life down for me to show his love..to win my love! And boy did he! I love him with everything! I will lay my life down for him! I will give him my all! There is no price to great, no sacrifice too costly! This is true love! The real kind! And I get to be in it!

I was right...

I was right about the changes coming! I had an idea about one aspect but turns out God completely surprised me with this one! Can't really share at this moment but its exciting!


One thing I can say is I dont know if I will be going to the Philippines anymore regardless of whether I get accepted or not. At least not this year. I have felt God taking it away for a while now and I have been totally at peace about it. Yes I am sad because I really wanted to go but I know that God has my future in His hands and I trust Him with it. Its funny though because two people have told me they felt the same way...that I wouldn't actually be going. It is still not for sure that I won't! Maybe He is just asking me to surrender it. I don't know but I trust Him! And I am very very excited!!!! So stayed tuned for where He leads me next!!

Waves of Change...

I feel the waves of change coming. I am not quite sure what but I have an idea and while it isn't what I would have planned I know that it is God's hand at work here and that excites me no matter what the change will be! Bring it on!

What do you think Heaven will be like?

Recently I have been thinking about heaven... God is a creator and while this world is really cool and He did a GREAT job at making it, I am sure He can create so many other things! Things that don't even make sense to our human minds. Things that you can't use words to describe because none have ever been needed. I heard a thought from a creation teacher once that what if in heaven we can use our senses in completely different ways...like tasting the color orange or smelling things by touching them. And what about colors...I bet there are so many more colors! And creatures... Have you seen Planet Earth the deep sea one and the cave one?!?!! There are some CRAZY looking animals that we don't even know about on EARTH but what about in heaven!!! What will they be like! What will it sound like to have all of creation worshiping God. The Angels...what will they be like! There are a few descriptions of angels in the bible, I bet there are more! And the most exciting!!! What will it be like to see GOD!! I am getting giddy thinking about it! To be able to literally sit in his presence ALL the time. To see him. To hold Jesus' hand with the scars from the nails! I am so excited! Excited isn't even good enough! I am....skjdfhskdjghsukgyfkhgkuahgjkasghgrefgjhdfjg!!! Jesus is so worth it! If you are His disciple Earth is the closest thing to Hell we will ever experience. If you aren't Earth is the closest thing to Heaven you will ever experience! It is so worth it to die in this life to receive the new life from Jesus! Oh my goodness I am so ready to see my King!