I can't think of what to call this...

So my check for my New Life Application was cashed yesterday! Yay! That means they got it! If I get accepted there's only 8 1/2 months left! I can't believe that I might be living in another country very far away for 3 years!!! It's very surreal to think about. Anyways, a girl who was at the school left. I read her blog and I don't know all the details of why she left but it has made me really pray about if this is really what God wants me to do. I have always felt it was but I just want to be for sure for sure! Because I don't want my own fleshly passion to be what I bank on! That won;t get me very far. I need Jesus and His direction to do anything! I can already see my passion dwindling. It may not seem like it on the outside because on a scale I am still very passionate about birth but not quite as crazy as I was even a few weeks ago. And I don't think it is a bad thing. I am learning to pursue God with my passion not pursue my passion dragging God a long. And when I am focusing on Him, birth isn't as cool. Next to Jesus, everything loses its luster.

I just got done reading the new Foxes book of Martyrs and boy was it intense! I never realized how much persecution Christians have always faced. It was really awesome to hear the stories of people who were so Sold out for God they gave their lives. I want to do the same. I want to give Jesus my everything. I want to be loving Him till my last breath and then for eternity after-wards. I decided to alternate between reading my birth books and christian books so that I dont get so side tracked with all the baby talk. Now I am reading a midwife ethics book which so far is pretty boring. I want to scrap it all together but I know it is important to read. Plus I am sure I will have to read some pretty boring books in my future for school so I might as well get used to it now. Being a midwife isn't always just about the oo's and aw's of delivering. There are some not-so-fun aspects to it as well!

Well that's all for now, i should be getting a blog makeover soon! Im so excited!

I applied!

So its finally in! I applied, sent in my check, asked for references, now...I wait! I am not sure how long it will be until we find out but i wish it was today!!! I think it will be around January or February but we shall see! Lindsey and I went to the Post Office together last night and then went to Sushi to celebrate! The giants won the World Series while we were there so two exciting moments in one!!! That's all for now!

12 days until I can apply!

Yes I am counting down! I am so excited to get the application out of my hands! Then I can anxiously wait for hopefully my acceptance letter! So exciting! I can't believe that I may be living in another country in less than 10 months...How weird! A whole new culture, people, weather, food, travel! Each day it feels closer and closer to happening! I ordered the books that I need to read before I leave. They should be coming in soon and I can't wait to begin reading them! So that's what going on now...not much! Just a lot of waiting! OOOooohh, but Lindsey and I have come up with some pretty good ideas to fund raise!

Getting Antsy...

SO I have been reading a blog lately of a girl who is currently in the Philippines at the midwife school. She was actually the one who inspired me to start my own blog to help raise awareness and support and then to keep in touch with family when I am there. I found another girl who is there. So I have been reading all about what they are experiencing and I've been doing a lot of research lately which is just making my heart BURN to go! I wish I could go right now. There is such a huge need and I want to help. 10 months...if I get accepted. I can't even apply yet! I keep praying for patience. But if I am this passionate about it all now maybe God is making me wait to grow it even more!

New Home, Fleas, fevers, and Interns!!!

Wow! It has been a very eventful past couple of weeks! First off I got sick...but its a weird sickness and it just wont go away! It started with a headache then a fever and chills then dizziness. Some days are better than others but it just won't go away. So I think I will be going to the doctor some time this week. So that started 2 weeks ago. Then I went to the Call which was AMAZING!!! One thing that was really cool to see was how many people were there and thinking how every single one of them had been touched by God in so significant of way to make them come and pour out theirs hearts back to Him! It was awesome! The next day I moved into my new house! Very exciting! Until we found out the house in infested with FLEAS!!! Yuck! So we have been spraying and vacuuming. I think they are gone on the inside but our yard is still infested! The Best thing about where I live is that is it 2 houses away from the intern house! So I get to see them all the time! The first years started yesterday and they all left for their first team building intensive this morning! I am so excited to see how God works in their lives this year! So that's what has been going on lately!

The Call!!

So tonight is the first night of The Call! I am so excited! The Call is a prayer rally for the ending of abortion in our nation. Tonight is a worship night which is pretty cool! The only thing is I have been fighting with sickness all week. It started last week when I was housesitting for a friend. One morning I just woke up and had a really bad headache. About an hour later I felt really week and really cold! Even though it was really hot outside! Any thing I did made me exhausted even just getting up to go to the kitchen or bathroom. And my headache was so bad it was hard to move. The worst of it was the first 2 days but I have had a headache all week long while slowly getting rid of the other symptoms. Until today...Today I feel like the first day! I think it is totally an attack since the Call is today! Ugh, Hopefully it will go away when the Call is over!

Time to get excited!!!

I am moving this weekend!!! I can't wait! I was walking around Target yesterday and realized how many little things we simply don't have. We will manage just fine, but it was just a reality check for me to see how many things I use daily.

I am so excited to get things started. This summer felt like life on pause! So now I'm pushing the start button and the countdown begins till I hopefully go to the Philippines. First I guess I should count down until I can apply... I have been reading a blog by a girl who just left for the Philippines to go to the same school I want to go to. I love hearing her stories and seeing all the pictures of the beautiful women and babies! Thinking about it makes me so giddy!

Anyways, not much else to say...

Oh sharing my testimony went well! I was nervous until I got on stage and then I was fine!