Boys...

So I went to the DMV yesterday. I walked in expecting it to be self-explanatory like all the other DMV's that I have been to. I looked around for a thing to take a number but there wasn't one. And there wasn't a line on anything obvious that says GO HERE!!! So I went to ask a nice looking lady that was sitting waiting to have her number called to ask her where I should go. While I walking over to her I noticed there was a young man (boy) that was smiling at me. I politely smiled back and made sure to not look over near him again.

I was directed to a desk where I waited for assistance and was then given a number. So I went to sit down and wait. As I was waiting I could tell the guy was staring at me! It was so awkward! Soon he walked past me slowed down to turn around and smile again at me and say hi as he walked out the door. Again I smiled back politely but then averted my eyes to the floor. I didn't want to give him any extra attention! A minute later he walked back in and sat down a couple of rows behind me, again I could tell he was still looking at me! I was praying someone would call my number but mine was still 10 numbers or so away! Then he came and sat next to me!!! UGH!

He sits down and introduces himself and asks how old I am?!?! What a weird way of making yourself know! He says he is 24 and wants to know if he can have my phone number. I told him that to get my phone number He had to speak with my step dad first. He was a little taken back. So he gave me his number instead. Then he asked me a few questions to make light conversation then went on his merry way, or so I thought.

I was finally called up, did my business then walked outside to leave and guess who's there waiting? His car just happened to be parked 2 cars away from mine with no in between. He comes towards me again as I walked to my car and asks, "So could you call me before your dad does?" I told him that I would ask him, that I trusted his judgment way more than I do my own! I said goodnight and left. So awkward!!!

I know that I have been in a little bubble for the past two years but wow talk about bold! Oh and I forgot to mention to you that I had no make-up one, super frizzy curly hair that day and my baggy work clothes on. I am not saying that I am hideous unless I am all dolled up but come on! I definitely wasn't strutting my stuff! So I gave the phone number to my step dad this morning and he threw it away. Fine with me! I have two theories... 1) He was a christian and was so overwhelmed by the Holy Spirit telling him that I was too and that he should be bold and pursue me OR... 2) He saw me walk in looking frazzled and unsure of myself so thought I would be a vulnerable and needy girl who would be easy to prey upon. My bets are on number 2.

I mean who knows maybe its a totally different story but it makes me sad because even if it wasn't what I think it is, I know that guys (I mean boys) are doing these kind of things every day! Yesterday I represented millions of girls who are unsure of themselves, don't know their worth, and are looking for someone to love them. It would have been so easy for me to have said yes to his desires to receive the love I would have needed so desperately! I could have looked past the red lights and given into the unknown and could have gotten myself into A LOT of trouble. Who knows who he is! He could be a great guy, but the chances are he isn't. And the chances are that if I was any other girl I would have fallen prey to his tricks and would end more broken than when I walked in! Ladies, don't fall into the temptation of boys! That's what guys like that are. They are adolescents that shave! A man will honor you and respect you and want to treat you right. He wouldn't lust after you and look at you like you are a piece of meat! I am sure there are time when men are led to be bold and speak up but I didn't get that from this guy. Every time he would look at me I had an urge to go find the thickest ugliest scratchy blanket covered in manure and throw it over my body to guard myself just from his eyes! That is not how a man should look at you.

You are precious! You are worth fighting over! You deserve to have a MAN that will protect you even from himself! You are to precious to Jesus, and He loves you more than any humanly man or boy ever can or will! Don't give into the temptations of this world especially those coming from hairy boys that drive! Walk in the confidence of who God made you to be! Even if you are broken and in need of love. Look for it in Jesus. He is the only man who will satisfy that need for love! You may be blessed with an earthly man that loves you but even he will let you down. Give your heart to Jesus and let him be your EVERYTHING!!!