My first Blog!

So I am completely new at this! i have always been hesitant to begin a blog but hopefully I will be going to the Philippines in a year and I know it would be helpful to share what is going on. So I guess I will begin by telling a little bit about me and my current mission.

I am 20 years old, live in the Sacramento are in California, and want to be a midwife. I just graduated from a two year internship at my church where my life was changed. God has wooed my heart from the beginning. He allowed me to move slow with him, understanding when I couldn't trust but gently nudging me to do so anyways. I have had to jump off a few figurative cliffs to see if He would catch me and He has...every single time. So I am hooked! Nothing can separate me from His love and that is the BEST thing anyone could ever have in this life. On this journey with God, He has revealed and grown the desires of my heart. Since I was 8 I have always been interested in becoming a health care worker for labor and delivery. At first I thought I wanted to be an obgyn. I did a program in high school that allowed me to rotate around the hospital to different areas and shadow under the nurses. When it was my week for Labor and delivery I was so excited! The first day I walked right into a birth where the baby was crowning! I was in awe and knew immediately that this was the field I wanted to be in. But after watching a couple of births I noticed that the doctors were more like baby catchers. They came in at the last minute and then left right after wards. I am very relational so I knew this wasn't for me. So I changed my path to become a nurse. I moved to California from Texas my junior year to live with my mom. A few months after moving my mom and I were watching a show about women having unassisted childbirths. I was shocked! At first in a bad way. I had never even heard of women having births at home, especially not by themselves. Everyone in my family or even just around me all went to the hospital!!! I had no idea home was even an option. So I began doing my research...and I was blown away! Natural births seem so much more normal, like this was the way God intended it to be. I did hours of research. Then i began watching videos of births on youtube. During the internship, this all continued. But at the same time God was showing me my destiny.

You see, another thing that has rocked my world since I was young was abortion. i have 3 younger siblings and 2 others that would be but died before they were born. One died during 8 months of pregnancy. I have seen fresh from the womb infants and their innocence and the life God gave them. And I have felt the excruciating pain of losing one. When I heard what abortion was, I was breathless. It broke my heart. I later found out that people very very close to me have had some and that tore me up even more. To know that I would have family here today kills me. On third of my generation is missing! WE have murdered more children in America than the Germans murdered in the Holocaust. Who would be here right now if it weren't for the legal mass murder of our children wasn't going on? This breaks my heart. I weep for the children who may not live. I weep for the parents with blood on their hands. I cry out that they will understand that Jesus' blood covers all sins and that the shame and guilt will be washed away. But I hope they never forget. Like my family hasn't because the blood of over 50 million babies cry out from the ground and they need a voice. They need someone to stand up for them so that their brothers and sisters won't be lost as well!

During the internship I realized that my passion for life and my passion for childbirth were connected. And God began to take me back to my roots...our roots. To the beginning of how he made our bodies to birth naturally. He quipped us with the tools to deliver healthy babies without the use of unneeded technology. I won't go on that trail just yet, I am sure I will have other blogs about it, but I do want to say that the use of modern medicine CAN be a life saver. But usually it is a hindrance. And God showed me the path He wants me to take. And that path is to be a midwife. I want to counteract the work of Satan by bringing life into the world. By being a midwife I will be taking a stand to his ways of deception regarding abortion and even childbirth. He is out to destroy families and I am out to help them. I will be a midwife to my generation those here and those who are lost. I will stand in the gap for those who can't speak up for themselves because Life does matter!

I especially want to help women in other nations who lose children because they dont have any help during childbirth. This is another way Satan is trying to kill families. I have always wanted to be a missionary and once I become a midwife I can take my skills to these women and spread the love of God to them while bringing life to them as well!

That's all I have to say for now...I know it's a lot but that's not even the half of it.