Hoping for a baby soon!

So,

I am now 38 weeks pregnant now and showing signs that labor might be close! I can't believe I am at this point! During my pregnancy this time felt like it was ages away and now that I am here I can't believe how fast it went! Chris and I are ready for this little one to make its appearance! The house is cleaned, thanks to my mom's help, and we have all the baby items we need. Birth kit is sitting ready all we need is some labor and we'll have a baby! I am very excited and trying to stay patient!

Cloth Diapers

So when the baby is born I will be using cloth diapers! Woo hoo! I am very excited! This blog that I follow is giving away diapers and diaper accessories for the next 12 days so I am posting about for an entry into the drawing. A perfect time to share lol! I hope i win one!

Here is the link...
http://allaboutclothdiapers.com/my-favorite-things-event/

20 weeks and Kicking!

So I am officially halfway through my pregnancy! Woohoo!!!

A couple of weeks ago I felt the baby move for the first time. I wasn't sure the first couple of times because they were so light! But after a week I knew. My description of what they feel like is tiny little taps from the inside. At least that's how they felt at first. Now the little one's movement's are much stronger and more frequent. I don't really know how to describe them now other than really stinking amazing! Feeling the baby move inside of me is my favorite experience thus far in pregnancy! Because it makes it all so real now! Haha the baby is twirling around as I type this. Its like its saying, "Hey mom, just so you know...here I am, growing in your belly!" I love it. I really want Chris to be able to feel it but the right moment hasn't happened yet. And as of Friday I realized you can see it move if you look at my belly when in kicks! So cool, I wasn't expecting that for a couple more months! I have tried recording it but my camera doesn't capture as good of video as it does pictures and you can't quite see the movements. Oh well, it will happen.

My bump has finally popped out. I mean I am not huge yet by any means, in fact I am still in that stage where people think I am pregnant but I am not big enough for anyone to say anything just in case! But its growing every day! Oh and my belly button won't be around for much longer, which is also really cool to me!

I can't believe that I am halfway through! On one hand it makes me really excited because I have waited so long for this milestone and if I can make it to 20 I can make it to 40. But now that I am here 20 more weeks seems like such a long tome to be able to see my baby! But the good thing is that from now on the baby and my belly will only get bigger. There isn't much to show during the first 20 weeks, even though you don't feel very great! But now the baby will just get bigger and stronger and will keep on growing until I get to hold him or her in my arms!!! EEEKKK!!! I am so excited!

Btw, the baby is the size of a banana now! Woohoo go baby! So that's all for now!

My Husband is Amazing!

The other day we went to Walmart and before we went in we were finishing our conversation in the car. When we were just about to get out I all of a sudden had a crazy DEEP desire for a flower...just one. I wanted it so bad I started crying, in just one second! It was ridiculous. IT was like I was craving food, but instead a flower. I felt ridiculous! But my amazing husband looks over at me and says very sweetly, "well let's get a flower!" So we went shopping and at the end of our trip and went to the bouquets and I got to pick out a beautiful bouquet of flowers. All I wanted was one. I was so stinking excited, I felt like a little kid with candy! It's official, I am a crazy pregnant woman! But I have such an amazing husband! He has been so caring and understanding during my pregnancy, which I know must be just as hard on him as it is on me! Especially since right before we got married I was super energetic, loved cooking, and was so excited to love and serve him. And now my desires to love and serve are there but my body slows me WAY down. And so it ends up that Chris has to help me A LOT! But he has never once complained and he is so caring! I am hoping my energy will return and sickness subside in the next couple of weeks so at least I can stay up later than 7:30! Anyways, just wanted to say that my husband is GREAT! And I love him so much!

Can I just say...

That I LOVE being pregnant! I am barely showing but I just love that there is a person growing inside of me! I am so excited fro the day when I get to hold him or her in my arms and kiss them! I love that God has given this amazing ability to GROW a whole PERSON inside of me! It's so cool! The sickness hasn't been pleasant and I know that both me AND my husband are ready for my energy to return but even with those symptoms I am still so in love with this feeling! And there is still so much more to come! Like when I get to feel the baby move for the first time. So amazing! I love the baby so much!!! By the way in case you were wondering, apparently the baby is the size of a lime! How neat!

I am one happy pregnant woman right now!


...now if I could only get my insurance to cover a home birth...

Heartbeat!

On Wednesday I had my midwife appointment and we got to hear our baby's heart beat! It was so amazing! I definitely feel pregnant but hearing it's heart beating was so special. It made it so real that we are having a BABY!!! There is a child growing inside of me right now. So stinking cool! Also I am now 10 weeks so I am a quarter through my pregnancy! Woo Hoo! And I am almost done with the first trimester so hopefully the nausea and exhaustion will subside soon. That's what's new!

The Philippines

So if anyone has read the beginnings of my blog you know about the midwife school in the Philippines and how I had wanted to go this year.

A recap...

In January, on my way home from Texas the Lord gently asked if I could lay it down. I joyfully said yes knowing that the Lord gives and takes away and He is always good. I wasn't sure if it would be for real that He wanted me to give it up or not but as time went on it became apparent that I wouldn't be going this year.

Shortly after, Chris and I began courting! Things started to make sense especially once we started moving towards marriage.

I have said this to many before but I'm not sure if I've said it here but there are two things that the Lord has given me passion for. Midwifery and Wife/Mothering. I loved and wanted both but more than anything I wanted and still want the Lord. I could live joyfully for Him without ever fulfilling either, both, or just one. While I was single I couldn't pursue marriage or motherhood because then they wouldn't have come about the right way. But one thing I could pursue was being a midwife, and I did.

While doing so, a dear friend of mine was asking about the school in the Philippines that I was saving for. Turns out the Lord totally called her there! She applied the same time as me and she got accepted and is now leaving this Sunday!!!!!!! So stinking exciting! She is going to do so well there!

Now I am married and preparing for birth and motherhood, while my friend is preparing for a long journey to becoming a midwife! It's sop beautiful how the Lord works!

Someday I would like to still pursue becoming a midwife, however being a wife and mother trumps any other passions the Lord gives me. They are the most important jobs he has given me. So maybe years down the road when my children are grown I might stir up the ole midwifery subject again. But for now, the Lord has given me a sweet, strong, manly man to care for, and soon a precious baby to raise. I am so blessed!!!